When Post Goes Late

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Hey guys!! 

I really don't know if someone is actually that interested in reading this posts/blog or not but yup, I'm quite interested in sharing few things. 

Actually I wanted to write this post earlier. But I couldn't. Lots of things happened in this 4-5 days. And to be very honest, I really can't write about them here. And because of them, I was way too tensed. Almost at the stage of losing something precious. 

Anyway, I can't discuss about this here. I had talked about my crepe bandages. And my bad luck that I still have pain. And I worn those crepe bandages till yesterday. And still today I've pain. 

I don't know what exactly happened. X-ray report will come tomorrow. Hope so nothing so dangerous. Obviously, it was a normal fall and still it did happened. May be because of last accident. Anyway, we should hope for good things in life not bad. 

What to say about myself now? I left my offline classes. Actually I'm focusing on self study more. Most of the times when I've my classes, I get to study Maximum of 5 hours (that's too I'm using the word maximum, after attending all those 4 classes). And my new biology teacher is so bad at teaching. Chemistry is over. And left with physics and biology. My old biology teacher was awesome. I really can't believe that how come there is so much difference in teaching the same topics. 

Anyway, I talked with my parents too. My brother was already suggesting me to go with self study. And I've my majors from 22nd April. So most probably I won't be attending classes. From last week, it's off only. On Friday we'll have one. 

Yesterday, we made a cute video. Actually we were mimicking the couple's. And I did the role of cutie while my friend did of mine. Trust me she scolded alot. And I was like trust me, in real life I can't say a word like this to him even. Not a bad word. It was a comedy one. But she scolded so good. And when I sent that video to Akka. Akka was like, "bro, you won't say a single word. The only word you can say is, "it's cute"". And it's actually true. Even my neighbour and friend were saying the same thing. That they know I can't even speak all these Infront of him. But may be that's what I wanted to say him. 

Anyway, it was the only thing that happened on light note. One of the other best thing was I got mail from Akka. Because I was waiting for someone else mail.

 And Akka actually told me that day, when I mailed him, "that do you really expect he'll mail?. 

And I was like, "yes, I believe, if he reads them, then, definitely he would". 

Though I was wrong. This hurts actually. Even Akka had said me that he won't reply you until you send him 16-18 mails. They have quite similar ego story. So can be a valid point. But I can't mail. 

Actually I forgot about this the very next day. I said about the problems in starting that's the reason. And that's why when I checked them yesterday, I was so happy to see this. 


I guess everyone teaches us some or the other thing. 

I guess everyone asks me, "why do you still wait/love (for) that person who doesn't care about you and probably hates you?"

I just have one reason which dominates the all other reason. Some simple act of kindness, some little-little things wins heart over any fancy things. His word, "I believe in you" is enough. 

When I couldn't believe on anyone, he was there  Anyway, may be I'm just overthinking. 

Trust me, I was so tensed from last few days. And yesterday, when things were finally sorted out. I couldn't sleep whole night thinking about him. Even after so many months (2 around), I finally listened to his voice yesterday. 

I'm sorry. I don't know what I wrote. But things got so miserable in between. And I couldn't think about anything else that time. 

And may be, in that, I forgot that we are not together anymore. And that's why may be I emailed him. 

Thanks ;) 
(If I get a reply surely I'll write a big post on it. Promise. But I know it won't happen. And he never surprises me with his activities even. It's like I'm sure he'll do this only. So no expectations even. This actually sucks. But anyway, if I get a reply I'll surely write about it. Or may be I should write one more. But only that time when he'll reply for the first). 

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