Day 2
I don't know how to begin this. I've so much to say but I really don't know from where to start. If in a simple word if I could say, yesterday was both the miserable as well as happiest day. Miserable for a reason. Happiest because it's a SECRET.
i don't see even messages now. Only on friends whose are uregent. There are so many messages and status left unseen these days.🤷😓 Twitter is my favourite app. Whenever I feel bore, I read some funny tweets.😂❤️
He just said he read few of my old posts not all. So there might be few people too. Anyways I was actually irritated Because of this but couldn't say that's why I had said to mail. Atleast I got one. I never knew he reads my post. 🤷
I couldn't sleep the day before yesterday. When I slept, I felt like someone is watching me or someone is about to touch me. The thing was I don't know I feel ghostly feelings at night when I'm about to sleep these days. Thanks to akka who keeps on saying her ghost stories to me. Though everytime I say her, not to say anything related to ghost. Obviously I sleep alone and their is no one in my floor apart from my neighbour. And that to she is a deep sleeper. So obviously!!
I don't know but I couldn't sleep even for a moment that night. Even I couldn't dare to get up from bed at morning until Shruti called me. Trust me, I got some guts at that moment. Even I couldn't dare to remove the blanket (bed sheet) from my face that time. I was such terrified.
On Sunday, that is yesterday I had my class till 1pm. During our first break, Shruti and I were discussing questions related to nlm. And she asked me to message AN sir that when he will come on this building. I did.
And can you believe? Sir replied me the very moment. And I was on cloud 9 by then. Crushes remains forever. 😂🥰
Anyways, even at evening I called AN Sir. Actually Shruti had messaged from again to sir from her WhatsApp. And she called me to say this. And I made a conference call to sir. His ringtone was Namo Namo. 🥺🙃 Because we actually had some theoretical or precisely conceptual doubts. As soon as sir said yes, I didn't uttered a word and added him on conference call. And then I was like, "sorry sir,...I mean good evening sir...sir it's Ankita and shruti from (Our batch)". And sir told us, "yes, I remember both of you". This was the best thing because he had taught us only for 2 months precisely still he remember our name.
When the conversation ended, sir told us we can sent voice note to him on whatsapp whenever we have conceptual doubts, so it won't be a problem. And as soon as sir ended, I was like, "Shruti, we talked to AN sir".🤭😂😁
The saddest thing was I broke my phone's screen yesterday. Just screen guard (protector). It happened when I was in class. Actually I keep sanitizer in my bag and in that place only my phone was kept. So I guess this might be the reason. I had changed just before coming to Kota. And now again it's broke.🥺
Even I was tensed alot yesterday due to my ghostly dreams. I called my dad and said. My mamma started saying me, "you can't keep anything properly". And my dad was like, "her dad has money, she can do anything with it, she is never gonna ask you for anything". My dad is another savage (atleast infront of mamma)🥰. Even when I said him about the dreams, he recited Hanuman Chalisa and told me read them before going to sleep. I did yesterday at night. And atleast I had a peaceful sleep. Faith is everything. We say na our first love is god and parents only. ❤️
I turned on my whatsapp notification yesterday. Actually I was watching my levture and someone called on WhatsApp. And I got irritated. I needed to go and cut the call. So I just turned on the notification. It's after a year I guess. Last time, when I had my breakup, I had stopped the notification. The reason being I was just distracted everytime thinking his message will come. Though it never happened. And now, since I know, he'll never come, so I don't expect his message. Even if someday if I sees his message, I'll be in doubt whether it's him or someone else.
My first notification when I revising my lectures.😂
Today actually shurti and I left the last class. Actually the sir teaching is electrostats is damn boring. He doesn't take any new examples and just go by the note. And just one way interaction. He doesn't let us participate. That's why we left his class. He saw is leaving and was seeing us like he would kill us. Even all the students leave apart from 5-10. Even we had attended all his electricity lectures and that's why know how he teaches. So we were waiting for him to go to class in corridor so that we can see the tomorrow's timing (we have holiday, just one lecture of Semiconductor, may be his lecture, he teaches so well). So I said Shruti that, "biology sir is sanitising his mike. Shruti was like, "yeah, because physics sir had used na, and every one knows how he is". I don't know it sounded so funny that we both were laughing at the corridor and one of floor uncle saw us. 😂😂
Yesterday while watching my genetics lecture, I was writing them again in books (NCERT). I found that I was out of fevicol. So around 8, I went down to buy that. Now the thing is I had completed one lecture and was watching another, so I thought to continue them in the lift, so I did. After bringing the gum, warden Di called me and said something around. And then I just sat on sofa there and watched the complete lecture for around 1 hour ( I didn't wrote them, book was in room, and I already have notes, so I can add them anytime). It happened for the first time that instead of wasting my time there, I studied something. Actually when I have my classes. I don't get proper self study time. It's only on holiday. So may be the exams dates are about to come, so it's effect. 😓
P.S.: I don't know whether it's right or not. But one of my friend messaged me and said that he was seeing my post (not all but few). I'm not sure though. But he said Something similar.
Actually the thing is we have not spoken to each other since January. At that time he proposed me and made things miserable. Actually he wasn't ready to accept my no. And that's why I left his message on seen. And not replied. Same happened with my best friend (though he was saying something else, but I was busy that time, so couldn't reply and then I thought to leave it.). So I didn't knew that he reads my posts. Yesterday after 2months when he texted, I got to know.
I don't message any boy from my side until it's cutie.( You can do anything in love🤦). The reason is last time, so many things happened because of that one status. I don't want all these again. That's why I don't talk to any of my male friends untile they message me (if someone reads my chats then they'll know, Akka knows actually, I send her screenshot of chats). I'm just afraid.
Thanks ;)
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