What something you regret?

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Eating ice cream. 

Last week, before leaving, I had an ice cream party with my siblings. The thing was dida has warned me not to because I already had sneezing but I ignored it saying, I'll be fine. It's been one week since I'm in my hostel. 

Initially the sneezing and cold were pretty normal. But since last two days, situation got worsened. I had a very bad cough by now . 

It's that bad that two days back I went to sleep at 11 but couldn't sleep due to cough till 3am. Yesterday, the situation was more worsened. I went to sleep at 10pm. But couldn't sleep until 1:30am. Even at morning, my voice was so heavy. I couldn't attend my classes because I had no energy to attend, it all drained in coughing. 

Can someone believe I was struggling to sleep while I wanted to. My eye lids were paining heavily because I had not worn my glasses since so many hours. And every time I tried to sleep, I started coughing. 

Trust me, at around 12am, I called Akka. Trust me, we had 10 mins conversation in the whole day but at night I was feeling so lonely and feeling like everything is over. It was such a bad feeling. Even I tried listening to our recording so that I can sleep. But his voice didn't made sense for the first time. It was one year old recording. Now, he doesn't know even how I'm . Neither I know. So what's the use of making myself feel bad for the person who is no more in my life. 

I struggled to sleep till late and finally at a point I was able to. At morning, I woke up at around 5:30am. Yes, I slept at 1:30 and woke up at that time. I had classes by 6:45 today, so I needed to revise my notes for 20 mins atleast. 

i was checking the time yesterday night and by mistake it got screenshot. I didn't deleted it because I was lazy that time to do anything 

But I didn't got the strength to do anything. I called my parents and said how bad my situation is. They didn't knew because they were already tensed about me. I'm all alone here. 

I didn't noticed a particular part until Akka explained why my cough got so bad. Actually I had an ice cream and few hours later, I had train. The thing was it was AC coach, so I almost spent next 16-17 hours in AC. And that's why it got worsened. Even at night, when I told her that my eyes are paining. Her first question was, "since how many hours you have not worn your specs?". And that's when I got to know the reason behind my muscle's strained. 

At morning, after informing my parents. I called one of my batchmate. The same MP girl, who was never my that close friend but definitely a one with whom I had conversations once in a month at home. And trust me, she is a best kind of girl. Even since 11th, I used to call her "second maa" because she always cared about everyone. At morning, when she got to know that I was in that bad situation. She asked me to drink warm water and to do  gargle. She knew I didn't had kettle here. So she offered me to take her kettle for few days till I am okay. And that's such a sweet gesture by her. 

But the girl next to my room had kettle do she had given me. So I told her the same. Till 7am I was awake. Then I tried to sleep. Woke up at around 9:30am. Trust me, it was peaceful sleep after so many hours. 

Yesterday, I had taken warm water along Vicks and had cough syrup. So all my clothes, bed sheet , pillow cover and blanket was sweaty. As soon as I woke up around 9:30. The first thing I did was changing my bed and pillow cover. And then I kept the blanket in my balcony. The sunlight is quite awesome there. So it will be fresh. And I took bath. I couldn't have survived if I had not taken the bath and changed the covers. 

I changed my bed sheet and pillow cover to white one. Atleast it not sweaty and give me peace. 

My blanket is kept under sunlight. 
 
I did gargling and had warm water since morning. Feeling much better now. 

Trust me yesterday and the day before was the baddest night. I couldn't sleep. Akka had heard my voice at night. And she was feeling pity on me. Yes, I had that bad cough that even someone who doesn't like me will feel bad. 

All thanks to that one Coronado ice cream which made the things more worse. First time I felt I'm alone. My family is somewhere else and that's why I got this feeling. I missed cutie even wishing atleast he was there. 

Anyways, it's just bad moment. It'll end soon. And I'll be fine again. I had a reminder saying, "things will get better soon ;)" along with "be grateful for what you have ✨". 

May all the people who are not well, be good and happy. I pray for all. ❤️

P.C. : Gallery (my room) 
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