Let's take a Break
From last few days, I was planning to deactivate all my accounts which include Quora, YQ and Blogger. Though, to be very honest, they are the only social networking site I use when I'm bored. And I'm actually in love with all.
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After thinking it for days and days, I decided I won't quit it. Let words express my emotions.
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I wanted someone suggestions in it. But frankly, apart from cutie, I don't take suggestions from anyone in all these topics. And on true note, he isn't in my life. So thinking about him is also a wasteful procedure.
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After writing so many quotes and posts, I realised all my writings has similar theme. Majorly of love and my day to day realisation. They are good but not best.
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I don't write about the subjects I'm interested in studying. Because people aren't interested in it. No offence. But with time, I started realising this is not me.
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I'm not a kind to shed tears and write love quotes all the time. Their is something much beyond these. It's KNOWLEDGE.
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I started reading on Quora to gain knowledge. I wrote here to learn new things. But seeing myself today, I'm just another one with more rotten work these days.
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When I started writing, I was depressed in life. I had no one talk. I had no genuine smile. I had no meaning of life at that point. And may be that's the reason why I wanted to end my life.
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But now, I'm happy. I got the meaning of life. I realised the importance of my happiness. I realised the importance of myself.
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But what I'm doing now? Writing about a person, who did all these to me. Someone who just played with my emotions. Someone who just left me knowing I'm crying every day.
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Even today, while here, I'm thinking about him. He might be wishing someone teddy day and how desperately he love her.
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No issue. Everyone is allowed to move on. And it's my problem that I'm still strucked.
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I've decided. I'll change the theme. And I'll write start writing continuously from the day when I'll have wide spectrum of words and knowledge.
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I'm going to hostel in next few days and I know things are going to be tough again. So better to be prepared early.
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Before ending this, may be I could give a try.
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Dear cutie, I don't know how you are. Today someone wished me teddy day. I realised last year, you had wished me saying, "it's your day". I know no feelings could vanish the love I've for you. But I also know, no matter what I say, you aren't going to be in my life.
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There were days, when I badly craved for your attention. I wanted to talk. But I lost all my hopes in new year.
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When you can't even message me wishing "happy new year". How can I expect you to be in my life? I think you wished everyone in your contacts. But may be I was the one, who was out of sight.
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And to be very honest, I again cried writing this. But this time Emotionless. I agree I take time to accept things. But once I accept. I won't restart ever.
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May be I should trust my friend now. It's already gonna be year and so many months since we didn't talked.
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So with whom ever you are, whatever you are doing. Happy valentine day in advanced. Sorry, I won't ever wish you in my life again. And I won't ever talk to you again. I'm cutting down all the contacts this time. Be happy 🖤. (Black heart symbolises the end this time).
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May be we weren't meant to be together anyways. You accepted it earlier but it took me days or year.
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I'm taking a break this time. Until I feel relived again. Let's talk about new kind of love i.e. with books and knowledge. 😀
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I'll wait for your messages yet.
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#beginning #knowledge #IWillWriteAgain #WantToFeelLife #LetMeGainExperience #ForeverIsAmyth #SeeYouAgain
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