How bad a mood swings can get?

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Everyone out there surely knows about the mood swings, girls get. But let it not bound it only to the times, when we get period. It's almost every week, every day. The drastic changes and alternating mood makes things worst. 

I won't talk about every casual day. I think, today was the worst day. I had a mood swing at another level. The irritation, the crying, the sensitivity gets almost uncertain. 

I don't know what happened since morning. I've my train tomorrow. I don't know but I was sad about the thing that I'm going. Don't ask me why ! Obviously, it's bit casual to be sad when you're about to leave your home. 

I was so much sad and frustrated. That I almost said my mom, that, she doesn't want me, that's why she is sending me to hostel. The irony is, I'm the only one who had said her, that I'll go. 

It's not home sickness. But may be side effects of the medicines too, I had taken yesterday. 

I had an accident yesterday. Nothing much to worry just small injury happened. Same with my dad. But he got worried. As I'm leaving for my hostel and all these things are happening. 

Anyways, I had taken medicines for foot injury yesterday. And may be due to pain, I couldn't sleep properly. And had headache in the morning. 

Since morning I'm fighting with mom. Mostly arguing, and saying, that, she doesn't love me. She only loves his son. Even I had a very bad argument with my brother which ended up into "No Talk Session". We both are not talking to each other. Neither I'll talk. Yes, I'm angry. (When I'm actually sad, I don't talk to one who have hurted me, no matter how close they are.) 

Though I talked with his girlfriend. And complained everything. And she was like, "wait, I'll beat him". 🙈😂

Don't know how but since morning I was crying unnecessarily. I don't know the reason even. I didn't did my packing even. So much is yet left. 

And I've such a bad headache that I'm not able to see the screen properly. I can't wear the glasses even. Writing this down because I don't know I want to express it. 

Akka is busy today. She has a wedding at her home. And that's why we can't talk. And that's why I'm more irritated. 

Obviously she understands everything, when I just say her, "Akka, you know...." 
And that's enough for her. I don't know but she comes to know everything just from listening to my voice. And that's actually love. 

I'm fed up understanding everyone. But Akka is the one who understands me. She knows how I feel, how my mood is. Even we don't talk for whole day, yet 5 mins conversation with her enough to make my day. And I had that 2 mins conversation few minutes back. And that's why I'm happy. 

I guess everyone need someone who can understand them. And in my life, I got this friend for first time. She isn't possessive or over protective about me. She knows I won't lie or leave her. I'll there and she'll be there at the middle of night listening each other things when needed. 

And that's why I appreciate her. I already respect all those who try to be in my life. Who makes efforts for soemthing. And she is the one who actually does put efforts in everything. 

That's the reason may be why I value her so much. It's hard to get someone who care about selflessly. ❤️

Okay, a small note. In my last post when I mentioned about the reasons why I don't talk to him. There was one more. The thing is earlier I knew he loved me. That's why I used to text him randomly. But after knowing, that he doesn't have feelings for me. What's the use of disturbing him? Instead I should value those who try to be with me. I don't know more than self respect this might be the reason. 🤕

Anyways, let it be. I don't know, now my mood is much better. When my father came, he said me, "no dear, everyone loves you, why you say like this, you are my princess". 

Sorry for depressing post. I was actually sad. 

Actually half of the part was written few hours back when I was sad while rest half now. 

Do you know what exact line I said to them, "mere se koi pyaar nhi krta, sab Bhaiya se krte hai, aap sab gande ho." 

(Nobody loves me, everyone loves big brother and you all are bad.)

Presently: my brother came to my room and started the conversation. I told na when I am angry, I won't talk, you need to come and pamper me. 

Thanks ;( .... :)

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