The New Year 2021 (Edited)

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22:00 hours ||  31st December, 2020 

It was around that time when I messaged Akka saying, "please don't sleep. I don't want to be alone today." I don't know but I didn't wanted to be alone yesterday. Though it turned out that I have so many people who remember me. And I really thankful to all those.  


Sofa messaged me around same time. And she sent me the most beautiful message ever. 💙


At around 11:45 pm, I was convincing Akka that I should message him once. And she was like, "no bro you won't message him. And she was like you need standing ovation, that person has blocked you and still you are so polite that you want to wish him". 

I don't know whether she is right or not but still we need to forget harsh moments to bring happiness in our life. And I know I'm not a kind who will fight or be angry for little things. Though it's valid till I love the person otherwise I'll be irritated. 😄

So when the clock striked 12am. Akka and I were arguing (funny one though) that time. And I started shouting, "it's 12. Leave all these...Happy new year....happy new year....I love you ...." And Akka was like, " you won't message....happy new year ....happy new year....happy new year. ....love you...love you so much". 

And she sent me a sweet text that time. Though it was spicier 😂. 


At around the same time, I wrote something in my diary. Then wished my brother on WhatsApp. He was in his room and still we messaged each other on WhatsApp🤷🤦. 


My parents were sleeping. My father has to go to his office at 8 in the morning. 🤷 

Anyways, I got first five messages from Akka, Brother, Sofa, S.S.and Rohith. 💙

To be honest, I didn't expected that S.S. will wish me. Actually we both are just family friends and we don't chat frequently until he messages first🤷. Actually I don't have topics to talk with him. He is senior to me. Unfortunately, he is also studying in 2nd year, mechanical department, in BITS. So he sometimes starts a topic randomly. He is such a sweet person. And my male version.💙 

I had messaged Tom, same text message exact at 12. And again it didn't reached him. He could have messaged atleast once🤷. Anyways, I did messaged him. So leave it. 🤞 Honestly, atleast today he could have kept his ego aside and wished for a second even. 🥺. And frankly speaking I don't know why but I'm getting this vibes that we won't talk ever. 

As I said about Akka, she had sent me the wish exact at 12. And she did promised me something. Actually, every year I make new year promise with my closest. So Akka promised me, "she will always be there for me no matter what happens." And I promised her saying, "I'll too remain with you. I will fight with daily and I'll say sorry and love you too and I won't leave". ❤️ 

In recent times, mostly Rohith had messaged me. So this time, I texted him first. And he replied at that very moment. And we both were laughing.🤞😄

My father wished me at 5 in the morning. Actually when he wakes up, he comes to my room and sees me first. That's why I'm the first person for him to wish new year.❤️ Though later I got his whatsapp message. 😂 Just father's thing. 😄


My mom too wished me around 7 in the morning. She was so happy 😄💙. 

At afternoon, she was telling me that dida is going to have arrange marriage, so as you follow her, you won't have love marriage na?😂. And I replied her saying, "I don't even have boyfriend, forget about love marriage😂". She just teases me sometimes because I've told her that I'll never marry in arrange marriage system.😂 Though it's after so many years, so we all can't predict the future. 😂

Got call at around 1 in the night from my maternal uncle (mamma's brother). And he was so happy 😄. 

My dida was sleeping and she texted me back in the morning 😂💙.
I messaged few people and received alot from many. 🤷 And I really thankful to all ❤️. 
the sweetest from my Jiju❤️. 

This is from Akka's status. I just loved it. 💙

I wrote something in my diary this time. Actually last year I had seen that image. It was written about 3 hobbies. So finally this time I wrote them over their. 


I recently started counting my steps, just Samsung Health thing. And honestly I'm loving this app.

That's the end. Got calls from few friends and then it's like any normal day. The only good thing possibly is I went to temple today. Actually, my periods got over today. So I washed my hair and decided all of the sudden that time, that I'll go to the temple. Went to our colony's temple. And I don't know I loved it. 💙

Akka promised me not to change my dp. According to her, that picture is damn beautiful . And she edited it. And her tag is in my photo. So I'm her property now 😂. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL ❤️. 
Hope we all achieve our goals. Hope we all live a healthy lifestyle. Hope there are less fight and more harmony. Hope everyone stays happy.😄 

Let's see who will be the last🤷. I'll write about it in the next post surely. 😂

Source : Gallery 

Thank you. 

EDITS : 

The last five wishes were from Jeetu Sir, My cousin, my school friend, a hostel mate and brother's girlfriend. They all wished me around same time again. Take Akka and father too in the list. Tom is too but he replied another day ^_^.

I texted him on Quora. I don't know why but I wanted to text him. I didn't expected the reply even. Don't know but for the first time, I felt, I don't want to talk to him. He is no one, this was my feeling. I read his message at around 8:30 and still didn't smiled. Yeah, I had that smiling face but no inner smile. And I don't know but I'm realising this now that, I don't even need him. I don't want to talk to him even. I don't want him anymore. I don't know but I'm happy like this. It's all mood swings that's it. Nothing much. He doesn't hold anymore importance in my life. I realised this today. 

Even when he replied, if I had that thing with him, then surely I would have texted him something. But I don't know, I didn't wanted to say a word. Even I didn't wanted him. Don't know what's happening. I had this feeling for my first partner when I was about to breakup with him. And I'm getting the same thing again. Agreed , SILENCE IS DEADLY , especially if it's from a GIRL.🤷

I told Akka the same. She told me that whether you accept it or not but you have moved on. And may be I've not conversed with him over so many months. So eventually I don't feel the same thing for him now. May be it's really over now. 

May be if he had wished me first then the situation would have been different. But it's opposite. 🤷. Honestly, I had messaged him because I admire him. And if he smiles because of me, then, surely, it's enough for me ;) . 

Though, it felt nice that he replied and honestly I didn't expected that he'll reply even.

source : gallery 
Akka was like you kept your ego aside and still wished him. And what he did? Replied you in one word. You wrote this big paragraph😂. And he was like, he doesn't let you even be happy. 😂😂🤦. 

Her exact lines were: Kuch likh deta to uska Kuch jaata kya?😂 

Akka wished me on Quora too😂. Wishes at peak😂😂.  She said she isn't jelaous because she knows he can't replace her😂. That's true though ❤️.

Okay, I've told about my dream and that blue-blue dp. It was from my friend. He kept that few days back and yesterday when we talked, I noticed it. 😂
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