After Prolonged SILENCE

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She can't understand what's the use of writing all these. What's the use of expressing her pain when he is not ready to understand a word ? What's the use of mentioning about him when he is not ready to listen? 

She still thinks about the time when they were together. How can you expect her to be normal, when you decided to break off from her in just one day? How can you expect her to accept that you are not anymore in her life when you said all these in 10 mins? And cut all the contacts within one hour? 

Was she not in love with you? How could you hurt her? How could you give her excuses saying you can't be with her? And how can you be so rude to her? When she only wanted to see you happy. 

What's the use of writing things for him. If he is not ready to understand her pain. What's the use of reading the phrases when he can't understand the emotions behind it? And that's why she decided to remain silence this time. 

Have you seen her? She is struggling to be happy. She used to struggle to sleep. How can you be so normal and happy when you are the one behind her pain? How can you be so arrogant when you know it was you who hurted her to the core. 

She still craves for your attention sometimes. She still thinks about you in a day. But what you do? You give her time to someone else and then come and talk about loyalty. This is what you call love? 

Is this the love you wanted to give her? The pain, the trauma, the sadness, why she can't see all these within you? Why it is that she is the one suffering in love? It started two sided na, then how can it be one sided now? 

What did she asked you? Your time when you are free. Your stories that you hide from the world. Your weakness that you don't show to any. Your smile that gloom on seeing her. Your love which was made for her. And that's what she craves for. It's your attention. It's your acceptance that she is a part of you. And at last it's only you. 

And that's why..
After prolonged silence , 
she finally uttered,

"I don't want to express my feelings. What's the use of it when you can't feel what I'm saying? You just read them and forget but you can't understand the emotions behind it. And that's what hurting me today. I'm sorry but I can't say more now. I won't express my emotions now. Because I know no matter how many times I show you my pain, you won't understand it. And I'm really tired of understanding your excuses now."

Thanks ;) 
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I'm updating about today's and yesterday's words I wrote in Telugu. I'm loving it (though I've to remember them) 😄. It hardly takes 10 mins and  20 mins (if extra) to complete this. And it's actually awesome. 🤭

It's yesterday work. I wrote around 6 pages. Actually, I got answer on Quora related to this and that's why I added all word . 

It's today's work. Check date is written on the top of it. 🤭😂. The best is now I don't need to skip lines like earlier in every word because I'm able to learn it. Though I'll skip lines for few days until I'm sure about the words.😄 Someone help in pronunciation 😂😂. 

Thanks ;)

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