The Girl In The City
NEW GIRL IN THE CITY
It's in Bengali.
By Ayesha Banerjee.
Like thousands of people when I came to Mumbai,then I carried few dreams along with my luggage. And the biggest of them was to become a Writer. When they said me to write this column, my dream was fulfilled.
But even after giving so much efforts, I couldn't write it. Whatever I used to write, I used to feel that it's incomplete. Something is still left to write in it. What I could say about this city, that wasn't said by anyone. That's why just a night before submission, I just torn my article and started writing again.
In just two months, I was differently in love with this city, it became like my own. But what was the reason for this? My exciting new job or my small flat or my independence? What was the reason? What this city has given me that it became so close.
Actually I knew the answers since very long time but I couldn't recognise it. The day I came to Mumbai, the very night I met someone...a boy, a friend, a roommate , a companion or whatevers you say. He was just opposite to me. He had no ambition or goal in life. But still he knew how to enjoy the life.
I'm actually thinking does the changing of my flat into a house would have been as interesting if he had not helped me? Would I have been more alone if he had not came that day to share my tea?
When I came to Mumbai, I had a very clear goal. But now I understand that the happiness of achieving goal only come when we have someone to share with.
Now I know, that why, I have this different love for Mumbai. It's actually because of my this idiot friend. He is more close to me, more than the city itself.
Mumbai is beautiful as well as strict too. As we run towards our goal, we often neglect few of things. And that's why even for a few hours.
Just take a break from your busy life and find that special feeling which makes your city as well as your life more special. Who knows you also get your soulmate like me?
Sid :What was the use of writing this big article? You could have said the same to me in the house. You know ayesh, I'm an idiot. Ayesh, I love you too.
I finally got my favourite dialogue. The one which I always wanted to hear. The one scene which will remain in my heart for forever. All these lines are from the movie Wake up Sid. I don't know what attracts me to this movie more. The Ayesha's character who pretends to be mature but still is child in heart. Or my favourite Sid who knows how to enjoy life. Or it's the celebration of life that attracts me. Or it's the favourite monsoon season of mine which I wanna see. I don't know what it is. May be it's resemblance to my real life character. But whatever it is. It's the one which I wanna see and feel.
The scene where Sid meets Ayesha to the scene where Sid proposes Ayesha, it's all my favourite. The time when Sid clicks pictures of son and mother love is really heart warming. The time when Laxmi says sid how bad she feels when she couldn't complete her diet rountine is such a gem one.
The failure which we see is actually a small phase in our life. The photography that attracts sid is what his father wanted to pursue. The dream to learn English by his mother just to become our best friend, just shows the sacrifices our parents do for us.
And my favourite monsoon. I've never said this to anyone. But I'm writing this here today. You know when it rains , I just run throughout my house. Sometimes I watch the water drops from my balcony . Then sometimes through parents balcony. Sometimes I see the drops in the leaves of plants and trees and I feel how beautiful it is. And sometimes I just see the whole view through the sky. In short, I love monsoon alot. I've never said this to any not even my ex knows this.
When people say that they wanna propose someone by sitting on the knee with those roses (my ex had this dream). I don't dream like that. I want someone who takes me near to nature. The place which is surrounded by trees and bushes throughout. And it's raining. May be Mawsynram in Meghalaya where it rains throughout the year. No roses, no guitar nothing. Just two of us. And the rain and the nature. That would be the best proposal for me. Just dance in that rain with me and celebrate the life, that's enough for me, more than any costly date even.
You know this movie made me nostalgic. Each and every scene was so brilliantly shot. The acting was fabulous by each and every characters. The songs added life. One of the finest movie ever.
The diary Ayesha had. I wanna buy similar diary. Actually I always wanted too. And keep my poems, stories in it. Not in post and phones and but in it. If I say honestly, I wanted to give tom, a diary with all his smiling photos on videocall pasted in it as his birthday gift last time. Because he rarely smiles. Atleast when he will look at that diary, he'll smile for a second atleast . But neither we met. Nor we are in contact anymore. Forget about video call, we don't text even.
I don't know what happened but I couldn't sleep whole night thinking about this movie. Each and every scene was replaying in my mind. All my favourite part was just going and coming back. Everything was so perfect in it. It reminded me of someone.
That guy who shows his strict nature to the world. He smiles but rarely. He tries to act like he is grown up and damn mature. But I don't know, whenever I see his photo or talk to him, I feel he is still a baby. That cute, innocent kid he is. I know he don't like listening baby word possibly. But he actually give me that vibes. That's tom. I was attracted to Ayesha's character because it reflects him. So dedicated and hard working. Totally focused on his goals and life. And that's what make him different.
Yesterday Akka was talking to her ex. And she sent me a screenshot.
She says to her ex: that she always motivate me not to text to my ex. And now also she is doing the same.
He: that's what I say. Btw, I'm not a toxic ex.
She: no yrr. That boy is so decent. And damn innocent. And he is too good too. But little immature.
He: what are you saying?
She: Ankita's ex.
He: ooo
I don't know what made me happy about this. She always takes his side when I say that he is bad. And she is one who always favour him. But still when she said the same yesterday. I felt different. First time, I accepted that you are right. Otherwise whenever she takes his side, we start arguing. And she is the one who supports his case in the arguement. And that's what makes her special. She says the truth which I often deny. He is not wrong but he is not correct even. She tells me not to message him because she knows he doesn't care and it'll eventually hurt me. If he messages first and then I reply then she doesn't have problem because in that case he wants to converse.
That's it.
One more thing, I added yesterday about few screenshots and friends, that's actually true. And may be it's not wrong even. We had breakup 10 months back so now it is justified. May be it's me who was thinking that it's not possible. Anyways, it's his life so totally valid. And I don't want to talk to him after knowing all these atleast. And anyways, neither he is going to message nor I. So obviously it's already the end. And I'll delete all our photos and chats on 31st night. I would have kept if I had not seen that chat. I don't know whether it's true or not . But whatever be it. We don't talk anyhow. So it would be better.
Source: Galley and Google images.
Thank you 💙 .
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