I know, you miss me!!

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I know,
you miss me !!

That's why you read,
 
Everything related to me,
In the busiest of days.
 
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When I say,
"I'm not happy".
 
You try,
searching happiness within me.

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You are always there.
I know !!

A little far, 
But around me.

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Sometimes,
you come back too. 

But it's ,

After a long process,
Of enduring silence .

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I say you today.

I know, 
You miss me.

But it's of no use now.

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I missed you, 
Alot few days back.  

But then,

I got a sudden reminder,
Of how you treated me all days.

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It's one year,
Since we met.

But in this one year,
We always fighted. 

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Even you couldn't decide,
Your feelings even.

Someday,
You love me.

While the other,
I'm a stranger to you.

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How come you can be 
so "rude"
to the one you loved the most? 

How can you
"hurt" me so much?
 
Just to prove that,

I'm no more important in your life.
You did all these. 

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More than answers,
I've questions' 
Raised for you.

Who are you? 
I can never understand this now.

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Once again, 

If you come back.

I'll say it's all,
"my fault, not yours."

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I know,
You won't apologize even for a second.

You'll just say, 

"Yes, I did,
I can't change them now." 

And then again,
You'll brake my trust. 

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But,
It's nothing now.

Go,
wherever you want to.

I'm not gonna stop you,
For a moment now.

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I don't miss you, 
These days even.

I may be lying,
I know, I miss you. 

But.... 

Whenever your memories come,
I get a flashback of,

How you treated me. 
When you knew how down I was for you.

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I don't talk about you, 
I'm not lonely now.

You broke my heart thousands times.
And still expect it to beat for you again.

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Sorry, 
it can't beat for you ever again.

I'm gone now,
Far and far away from you.

                      --------------------

It's over.
It's all over.

I couldn't even listen,
That you miss me someday.

May be that's the,
Biggest regret I have.

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I'm happy.
Alot happy.

I know,
you miss me . 

But I won't say a word this time. 

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Valid for me!!

Sadfully, my uncle (father's brother) died today. My mamma and papa went his home that is our granny house. After 3 days they'll return and then again they have to go for further rituals. I don't have words to explain my feelings this time. May he rest in peace. 😔🥺

Thanks ;)







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