There is so much

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There is so much
 
To say ,
Within me .

But I'm waiting for you to say first .

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There have been

A burning pain 
Always inside me.

It glows on hearing
 The name of you. 

But unfortunately,

Due to your act,
It hurts me more than anything else.

                    --------------------

Deep down ,

I think some day ...

You might miss me,
Some other day .

In this hope,
Of seeing your message,
I check by inboxes always. 

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Sometimes,

I give a thought.

What if he wants to say,
But isn't able to. 

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But then ,
I realise.
 
It's never .
He never wanted too.

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Last time,

My friend asked,
Three questions !

Saying,
"if you can answer them,
Then only I can believe he said the truth".

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The first was quite intriguing ! 

When I had said her,

"He didn't wanted to leave me,
But his father was angry on seeing me
And that's the reason we broke".

                    --------------------

She answered smoothly ,

"If it was a lie,
Then give a second thought on,
Being an introvert ,
How much he can think of ".

                    --------------------

I looked puzzled,
On her questions.

I said,
 "let's go the next one, please!"

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Second was more dangerous. 

She asked,
"Why did he said 
That her mother was the one 
Who told any female can destroy
His career if she wants too
By false accusations"..

" But in reality, 

He never told his parents
About you.
Then how can her mother say 
All these in queue."  

                    --------------------

On listening these,
I was shocked.

I didn't knew what to say. 

I just looked upon her 
And said ,
"Last question, please".

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She said the last one,
In trembling voice. 

It was quite simpler than earlier !

She asked a simple line,
"Why he thought about his career the day you had fight?"

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I didn't knew the answer of any.

I tried to speak.

But then there was nothing to explain. 

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She felt the nervousness within me.

Gently she holded my hand 
And said, 

"Look dear,
It's pretty simple 
He was fooling you 
He never wanted to say the truth" .

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" It's all lie. 

Look at the situation now,
 
'Did he messaged you?'

Just go
And  
Text him sorry.

And then see,

He will get to know, 
That again you are down for him.

And then what?
He will take you for granted forever. 
 
In the hope that,

No matter what he does,
You won't forget him ! 

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If he had loved you,

Then he would have,
Texted you before you do. 

Understand there is no boy,
Busy for the girl he loves. 

There is no one,
Who could live 
without talking to the one. 

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And that's where,
You are going wrong.

Let him go.
Let him roam.

You don't need to prove your worth. 

If he knew how valuable you were,
He would have never done all these yet. 

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Trust me ,

It's the end .
You've moved on long back.

His memories doesn't haunt you. 
His name doesn't make you cry anymore.

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You healed yourself.
Not by destroying .

But instead by writing all.
The poems about him in love. 

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source : Gallery 

I really have a question though 😂.
Do they read the old text even?😂 And if yes, then message for once na, surely we'll reply🙈😂😉😁. Kidding 😉😄

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source : Pinterest

Honestly, I don't know where I'm in. Sometimes, few things hurts a lot. And no matter what we say or do. It won't change.😅
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Thank you ;)

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