You know what?? I still pray for you !

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Today, I will be honest here. I did try to hate you. I did curse you for hurting me. I did blame you for my pains, for my tears. I did try to erase you completely from my mind. And in some rather desperate and weakest moments, I did want you to suffer this pain too. But honestly, this phase didn't last. And of course, it did not work to soothe my burning soul. Now , I had made peace with you, what we had. 

I don't want to erase you off my life. You will always be a part of it , a brief but beautiful part. Yes, we did have our dark spots. But overall it's the most beautiful part of my life. And don't worry , I am not setting my mind to get you back in my life. I have accepted that we are meant to part ways. But still have some hope that you'll return back saying, "I can't imagine my life without you". Love give us hope every time even though it's ending.


You know I have shed tears listening to songs . I have choked watching emotional scene in movies . Sometimes, I have cried just sitting. Nothing happened, just tears shed down through my cheeks like rainfall. I have experienced every possible low that a breakup could give. 

But now , I have healed. I smile. I laugh. I sit in peace. I sleep like a baby. And now I can really look back and look at you again. And what do I feel? 


I pray for you, at times. It's not like a formal long prayer. But yeah a kind of where I close my eyes . And pray for you to be happy. That's what I feel for you. I want you to be happy. I don't want you to suffer any karma. I don't wish any harm to you. It will bring some peace to my soul that you are doing good. Your happiness will set me free. I can be more free at my heart. 

What were we? We were too close right? Too damn close ,that we have cried each others tears in our eyes. And when your souls have felt so close , how can you not pray for that soul?  Can I ever become so heartless? 


I tried to be honest. I tried to be cold hearted for a moment. But as it turned out, I was too pure for this . I know as life moves on , you face , you name , your memories will fade away a little. 

But trust me ,even at my death bed , you will have a moment of flashback in my heart. Before leaving this planet , I will pray for you one last time. And I will still love you for one more moment. 

Thank you for reading :)

P.S. : I was bit busy for my exams that's why didn't got time to write in the last week. I will surely try writing something more interesting in the following weeks. 


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