I'm probably not "MAD" at myself

Read full post in low pitch not as someone who is shouting. It will make sense then.

I'm probably not "MAD" at myself for loving people. There are some moments in our life where we give our everything to the one we loved. The happiness, the anxiety , the love and everything. But as the time goes on , we start realising that they were not worthy of our love. It's not because they don't love us but because we expected more than what they could. 

Have you all ever given a thought on why the good people always suffer?? Why is it that even though the good people give everything, still they are expected to behave more better?? It's quite simple to understand that when good people start becoming rude , arrogant then people only see their behaviour. They don't give a thought on what they are going through. 

If I say that , I am not probably mad for loving you , even though you were not worthy doesn't mean I don't love you anymore. But it simply means that you never loved me back  the way I wanted it to be. 

What goes around , comes around. But what about the time you spent with someone. What about the memories you shared with them. Why is it that people can't understand this simple thing that forgetting someone is not that easy? Why it is that you always need to explain yourself? Why it is that the one close to you cannot understand what you are going through even though they are close to you?

But when I say that I am not probably mad at myself for loving them is because I understand that they needed it more than I ever needed. Some people won't express how much they love you until and unless you say to them. Some people won't understand that why you are important to them . But when you need to explain them then you understand that it was never meant to be explained. 

" I am not mad at myself for giving my love to the wrong people ; they probably needed it the most". 

Everyone with whom I met and everytime whom I loved whether they are friends , boyfriend , colleague , family or anything. I never feel sorry for the love I showered them. May be they needed it the most. Now , also there are so many people in my group who need love , care , affection because we really don't know what a person is going through in a closed room. I just want to convey that don't be sad because of some people who don't love you back or they aren't loyal or they don't trust you or anything. Don't change your nature because of someone. Be what you are. You might end up helping someone in giving new life. 

This time ..... Let's start again.  Let's forget all the hardship. Become the person you always wanted to be. Most importantly, don't change yourself because of someone. Find happiness in little things. 

P.S. : It's an old post. I was checking my draft and found this. I edited most of the parts. It was written around starting of October. But was never posted. It contained few parts related to someone but I deleted all and just kept the main content not anything personal in it. 

Total of 80 posts out which 50 are published 😂.

Pictures are mostly irrelevant. I had in my phone and I loved them. That's why kept here. 

I have so many drafts saved. Possibly this week I'll post all the drafts😝. 

I don't know what else can make my day apart from the fact that my hair is so long now🙈😝.  

Tried my lehenga even...gosh, it was damn heavy😂😂

Thank you for reading :)