Dear Nani

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Dear Nani , 

The most cutest and beautiful lady of my life. Words can never describe your beauty . Those big hairs , mesmerising eyes , those tiny little fingers , and finally your soothing lap. Of all the person out there , you were my favourite. My special buddy. My dearest complaint box . 

I wish I could stop the time . I wish I could go to past again. I wish I could meet you again. I miss you so much . 

15th August , the day you gave the most memories to us. And the day you left us too. 
That one phone call drastically changed my life . The news that you are no more was so painful. I still remember everything about that day . 

The videocall where I  saw you lying peacefully. The moment I shouted on call saying , "Nani get up na , I love you so much , don't go now ". 

You know Nani if someone can express their love through crying na then I think even if I cry throughout my life then also I can't state the love I have for you . You were my special. Now also you are special. 

I know I can't meet you or talk to you . But when you come to dream . For a second I really forget that you are no more. I still cherish the memories I had with you . 

Nani , you are my angel . Mamma had told me that one day before you left us ,you asked her , how I am and you desperately you want to see me as a doctor . I too want to wear that white apron for you . 

 I am really sorry Nani I couldn't talk to you at your last moment. I regret for not being their with you . 

But then I feel happy , that , every time when I met you . I expressed my love for you . Those gentle kisses and tiny hugs are beyond expression . 

I remember the last time I met you when my result were declared . I remember the smile on your face , when you got to know that I stood the first position in my school. I remember how gently you have hugged me . That smile was precious to me. 


Every year ,  you used to give us money for national holiday and festivals.  I miss those money now. They all are kept with me as a remberance to your memory . 

Remember I use to keep my head on your lap and asked you tell the story . Every time you ended up telling me the same story . The prince charming and her gorgeous queen. 

You loved my hair so much . I remember the scolding from you when I had that boy cut hair after 10th. I know you loved the curls . 

You always said me ,  I look beautiful . But Nani you were the most beautiful lady for me. I remember those yummy khicdi , that you used to make for us . The way you used to scold Mama for not  giving us more khicdi even though our tummy was full. Those tasty halwa , I still remember . 

I miss you so much Nani . It's about to be an year now . Still I am not able to believe that you are no more. You know right from my childhood that , I am an emotional girl. And that's why you used to say me to become strong. But still I can't . Even the smallest memory of you makes me cry . 

I gets dream related to you sometimes. In those dreams , you are their . I miss the care . I miss everything related to you . 

Thank you so much Nani for being their at my life. I never saw Nana jii but I am sure he was a lucky man . As he had you in his life. Nani those silence in your house reminds me of you . That bed where you used to sleep , misses you  . I love you Nani . Love you to eternity . 

Thank you so much Nani for teaching me so many things in life. Thank you for being their everytime . Thank you for all your love . Thank you so much Nani . 

I will keeping loving you Nani. You are always their in my heart . Love you till the last breath Nani.  

From ,
your grand daughter , 
Ankita 

PS : Nani means mother's mom . Mama means mother's brother . 



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