Misery!!

I'm writing this post down while sitting in my balcony. I'm not that fit to walk but I've removed my crepe bandage and I'm feeling these cold winds today. I just wanted to sit here for sometimes. Few minutes back, I was talking to Akka on video call.

Actually today, she in her another house and is going to sleep with her mom. She had messaged me earlier that she can't talk but I just said her I'm not feeling well and that's why she especially came out of the room to talk to me. 

The thing is I'm missing him badly today. At evening, I was walking with my friend (room no.510) . Not a long journey just 5 mins on this straight road of our area. I can't walk properly neither in speed. So we were just enjoying the weather little bit and talking about getting that skateboard. 

I don't know how but while walking I suddenly felt so bad. I felt like crying in the middle of the road. I wanted too even. And it was just because I was missing him badly today. Not today but every day. But it was different feeling today. 

Even I thought of messaging him today. It was hangout first. But don't know I couldn't message. I wanted too. But what if he didn't get them and what's the use if he reply them after a month or never. Their won't be any significance. 

I thought about checking my Jio chats today. Installed it again and found one unrwad message. It was from Akka. And that's why I dropped the idea of messaging him. Though I still want too but don't know where. 

And then Akka called me up and my mood changed drastically. Even she had video called me at night, 12:30 yesterday. And then she did something that time on call. Actually nothing much but definitely worth sharing to her friend. And then, it turned out to be completely funny conversation with him. While Akka was on vidéo call. Actually whenever he messages me or whenever I message him, I just share the screenshot with Akka. He is her friend. And I talk him, till she allows. Otherwise I've no relation with him. 

I'm sure, I'm badly gonna miss him. Wish I get one message. Just one message. Atleast "hey". 

Today, I was showing the birthday wishes that I had sent him to my friend (510). Actually it was in Telugu and she was reading my Telugu diary and that's why I showed her. And then, there was his photo of video Call and some random. And then she was like, "does he even smile? Look at you. You are smiling in picture and he doesn't smile even. Completely opposite". And I was like, "but trust me, everytime he smiles, I can't stop blushing that time. He looks way too cute that moment".😁🥺❤️

I found something interesting today. She said me, "whenever I see some boy or some random person whom they point, then also I relate soemthing related to him in them, like shirt color, or glasses or hairstyles or voice and that's why may be I'm not able to move on. Because I see him in every other person which doesn't happen generally with everyone.

Eeeeee😅 

i save number this way, these days. Kidding!! It's just mine and cutie's number. Even I don't know how but I kept dp in my other profile after around so many months. Don't know just wanted too😅.

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